By Olaitan Ibrahim
Adanma Luke, a Nigerian film producer, has once again shared her sorrow regarding the deaths of Jnr Pope and other crew members while working on her film.
On her Instagram page, she posted a moving video where she talked about the tragedy and its impact on her mental health and wellbeing.
Adanma believes that, although it was God’s will, she still wonders why it happened to her. She feels sadness that those who passed away were there to help her.
As a new mother, she struggles to keep silent about her feelings, even though many have advised her to.
In her words: “I’m so sad that this had to happen on my set, I’m so sad that they had to come work for me at that particular time. I’m not God, it has been destined to happen, it is meant to happen, but then why me? I never liked the internet drama and all that but this whole thing put me out there. A lot of people have been dragging me, they have been calling ‘Ada don’t talk, Ada let this die, don’t talk’ but I go through a lot, I go through so much, I’m trying to heal but it’s not coming back.
She noted that on her initial trip to the filming location, she inquired about life jackets. They told her there were no jackets and assured her that there was no need to worry.
Adanma said that she had taken all the blame since the tragedy happened, even though it wasn’t her duty. “We all loved JP, we all loved others that also lost their lives, my crew members. To shoot that job, I asked for a better location and they took me there. First time going there, I asked ‘why are they not providing live jackets for us’ because we had to go see the place before we went for the main shooting and my BM told me that it’s how they do it there, that a lot of people have been crossing, I wasn’t the first person that shot there, they shoot there all the time. I wasn’t even shooting in the water, it was a means of transportation to the place. It’s not like I did it on purpose, It wasn’t even my duty but I’m taking all the blame, I’m carrying all the cross but please Nigerians I’m sorry, It has happened.”
Adanma Luke went on to plead with Nigerians to forgive her because she was battling financial and mental health problems.
According to her, she is still catering for the families of those who lost their lives and she needs to work to make money.
In her words: “I didn’t even know what depression was until this whole incident happened, I’m gradually losing my life, I’m regretting a lot of things, I don’t even know how to call people for jobs. Please Nigerians, forgive me, forgive me for employing people for jobs, I don’t even know what to say but I’m sorry, please I’m losing my life. People are even saying I went on vacation, I’m here for business, I travelled to go help myself, I’ve been indoors doing nothing and yet still catering for the families that lost their loved ones. Where do you people expect me to get all these money from? I need to work, I need to make money. My baby wasn’t even up to three months when this thing happened. You all can’t even imagine all what I went through but please Nigerians, forgive me. I know I can’t bring back the dead.”